Thursday 23rd May 1935

This evening I was faced with two alternatives.

Seven-pence-halfpenny left. Therefore, lunch tomorrow and no cigarettes or cigarettes and no lunch. I bought a packet of Player’s! Drug fiend, what?

Repose. i.e. Serenity. I have not acquired it yet. I jump about feverishly; I speak a little faster than I think. I worry and ponder. (Slight improvement lately, through artificial fatalism) I cannot relax enough. However I’ll keep on trying!